I am not quite sure where the time has disappeared to. I have barely done anything of note for ever so long.
And yet the blog seems to have been neglected. By whom, I am not sure. This is a blame-free culture here. Anybody who disagrees will be taken out and shot.
Jimmy has been working all the hours imaginable, leaving me to do...what?
Agreed, my burden of housework has ballooned, but I long ago worked out the means to survival on the minimum of housework.
I have been watching less TV, because I haven't been watching with him. Yes, I have been to the pub a few times, but time-wise this is merely a replacement for time spent with him. Apart from the obvious things like working and sleeping, I really can't figure out what I have done with my time!
Separation is a strange thing. When one is single, one yearns to be part of a couple, often for reasons connected to loneliness as much as any other. The avoidance of relative loneliness. For nearly four years we lived a slightly strange existence where we were definitely seriously 'together' but he was living in his father's house but spending some nights down here. Then he moved in permanently and we immediately learnt how irritating how each other could be. And, as I suspect with most couples, it is the little things, the matters of trivial substance and negligible impact that really begin to annoy!
There have been times when I have wished myself single and free, free to eat what I want when I want, to spend my leisure time doing what I want with no concerns about the needs of anyone else. When we discussed him taking this bar management post that I would see very little of him, and I accepted this as being a price to pay in the short term. Rather than getting worked up about it, I decided to seize the opportunity to use the time constructively. Or failing that, to enjoy some solitary leisure pursuits. I have done neither. I really don't know what I have done except work and sleep.
I am so conscious that at various times in my life I have failed to maximise an opportunity that presents itself in unexpected ways. Not that I particularly regret them. That's just the way that life works.
But I am really surprised at the extent to which the blog has been neglected. I have a long list of topics to be blogged, but that really isn't the same as writing and publishing the damn posts...!
